
jasonmartins
- September 3rd, 2004
ok, im updating due to multiple requests by many people, actually i think laura is the only one that asks me to update my journal, but here, hola. Sometimes i dont know what i want, and sometimes im really not sure, but this time i know, its probably crazy, but its ok cuz what do i have to lose? I will just get more inspiration out of whatever happens. I gotta do something, and i need to get somewhere, but i dont know if it will be worth it, im not making any sense, i dont know if its a mistake, or if im supposed to. theres not much real purpose to this journal entry, just something for me to write, dont read it. I wish i could learn how to be alright, and be fine where i am, i think and would it be any better anywhere else? would i be any happier? i think i would, but im probably wrong, i am sick of being where i am though, i need some change, i need a new place, a new chapter. someone take me away, i dont understand how so many people can just ignore the fact that everyones leaving in a year, some are already gone, but theyre right in front of us. we dont know what happened, we dont know how to fix it, we dont know what theyre thinking or what they want. chance, luck and life are all the same thing in my eyes. its time to get shit done and its time for me to get going with things, its time for everyone to get growing up, its time for loves, and many friendships to end, and maybe new ones to start. many hellos and goodbyes, all at the same time. moving on and on, time doesnt give a shit, and its starting to running out at this point. but i guess something to good to know is it will never stop or give up, a loyal friend, never leaves us, keeps pushing us along even in the darkest most painful moments. Sometimes it seems harsh and evil, but its all for the better, maybe someday everything will be alright, for alittle while that is, times change, things change, always, bad to good, and good to bad, and then back. hello and goodbye